Thy Oxygen

Friendship…what an emotion or phrase or God knows what…each and everyone has a friend or has that small little bond or bridge called friendship…these people come in all sizes and colours…but whatever be their looks ugly or smart…these people are the most beautiful people in our life…friends are the only people which we choose to be associated in our life. Otherwise God sends us with a readymade package of fixed relatives.I think God has this list to be included with every baby i.e. 2-Parents, 4- Grandparents, 4- cousins and the list is endless he sticks that list and then calls for next baby…sometimes we don’t even meet everyone included in the list so God please make that list a bit precise for your next package...but God includes this blank paper with you when you are born this list is to be filled with the people you want to be associated with or in simple words with friends…when you die either u die with the blank page (i.e.no friends) or fully fill it up..I prefer the second option...I know there will be many cancellations in this list, some from my side while other from the friends side but this cancellation is the worst part of being friends (for people who hate such symbolic talk—I am talking about breaking up of friendship or dosti main darrar whichever is easy to understand) this parting of friends starts from age 2 when u are friend with a small baby who has come to visit your house and then after a short friendship of 2 hrs that baby leaves..1st name written on the paper and immediately cut-off… this goes on for life…but then at a particular age (I don’t when) it just happens that this friends become life…for every decision in our life we have a friend some though speak very rarely but they talk a lot through their silence..Their presence is enough to go through the most difficult times…some act as your parents…while others act as brothers…as if the relatives list created by God is non-existent during the phase… the most funny thing about friendship is that it gives the biggest adrenaline rush which can’t be given by any drug or alcohol…imagine yourself with alcohol but without your friends(I don’t drink so I have never experienced this but still I knw..dnt ask me why?)I think I am addicted to friendship…one of the very few addictions not considered bad (hopefully).Actually I am not a very people’s person nor I am I the best friend anyone would ever get actually I am the worst…hopefully they don’t have a worst friend award…coz I do every and anything to deserve this award from forgetting their birthdays to never gifting them anything to make them feel happy..yeah I know u would say that they should kill me for this but then you are dealing with a different species called friends…instead of hitting me some of them take the pains of reminding me the birthdays of others while others remind me their own birthdays and I bluntly wish them…hehehe…I knw remembering birthdays is not the ultimate sign of friendship but then please take it as a representation of friendship so u can say friends like oxygen to me and I always keep on giving CO2 on them.I have always wondered what do they see in me to keep my name in their list…I mean why would anyone with normal senses bear a person like me at least I wouldn’t have (sorry for being so selfish). Like many questions i.e. why does earth revolve around sun and not the other way round or whether there is life after death? This question of why 2 human become friends or why does anyone become friend to a person like me will remain unanswered…once a friend told me that I am an adventurer searching for something in every friendship and when I find it I move on to next friend…I realized this selfish attitude of mine and my question intensified more i.e. why choose me as a friend and the answer will remain unanswered till eternity but still I will try my best to fill my friends list..maybe someday I will find the answer and try to be a better human being or rather say a better friend…